Philip Zimbardo -- Our concepts of time and its ramifications for education

A great animated view of Philip Zimbardo's talk at the TED conference:

Adventures in Free Comics

My son and I have shared a long and storied Geek History throughout the last 12 years. From bed-time comic book reading marathons to regular visits to the comic shop, from three visits to WonderCon to a crazy weekend at GenCon (to help sell Thugs! – buy one today), from a family outing to BlizzCon to MST3K weekend jags, even to long philosophical discussions concerning the potential outcome of a fight between Invincible and The Thing, our relationship has grown stronger and tighter through our shared Nerdage. But my son is going to be a teenager soon, and opportunities for us to bond in this way, I fear, will be slowly diminishing as friends, girls, and cars loom in the distance. It is with this fear in mind that I decided to make this year’s Free Comic Book Day especially memorable.

For those of you who don’t know, started in 2002, Free Comic Book Day (according to the web site) “is a single day when participating comic book specialty shops across North America and around the world give away comic books absolutely free to anyone who comes into their shops.” While we have done FCBD once before, it was never really an event for us, hardly even an outing. This year, though, we were going to celebrate it like it was (and is) a national holiday.

After building up excitement for FCBD for the last two weeks before the date, by the night of April 30th my son and I were practically frothing at the mouth in anticipation. That evening, we mapped out our route – four different shops to visit in a 92 mile carefully plotted circle – gotta love Mapquest. Before he went to sleep that night, after I said goodnight, my son looked at me and tiredly mumbled, “Tomorrow should be fun.”

On May 1st, at 6:00 in the morning, my son threw open the bedroom door and shouted “Free Comic Book Day!” In the ensuing three hours that I spent trying to get out of bed and unfog my brain, he was feverishly web searching everything he could about FCBD. Of particular interest to him were the Iron Man/Thor issue and the re-issue of The Tick #1, a long time favorite. Finally, after I shuddered down two cups of coffee, we were ready to head out to our first stop, what my son and I consider our local shop, A-1 Comics in Roseville, CA.

A-1 was scheduled to open at 10:00. We got there around 9:40, when there was still plenty of parking and only around 10 people milling about. By about 9:50, though, the parking lot was full and about 35 people had shown up (an interesting sociological side note: without any prompting or instruction, we all ended up forming a line to wait to get in – I guess Comics fans are, by nature, orderly and polite. Either that or queuing is such a part of our event mentality that it has become second nature). By the time the doors opened, the line was probably about 50 people deep.

Ron and the rest of the staff at A-1 had certainly embraced the trappings of the event – from the banner sign hanging on the front of their store, to everyone wearing FCBD t-shirts, to the store-wide sale they were putting on in conjunction with the day – it had all the makings of a happening. After the doors opened, we all orderly and politely shuffled down the main corridor of the store to the Free Comic Book table, where we were reminded that each customer could take two books of their choice. My son was able to complete his advanced planning by scoring both of the books in which he was most interested: Iron Man/Thor and The Tick. I chose Marvel’s Moon Knight Saga and a reprint of Boom! Studio’s Irredeemable #1 (one of the best series going right now, in my opinion). My son also scored a Bat Man Heroclix in the deal. We then perused the sale offerings and took advantage of the 20% off all new comics. My son got Image United #2 and all 5 issues of Marvel’s Prelude to Deadpool Corps. I grabbed issue 1 of Image’s Turf and IDW’s ZVR Adventure.

My son and I both agreed that this was a great way to start our FCBD adventure. Our only complaint was the layout/presentation of the store didn’t have any real thought out traffic flow. There was an instantaneous bottleneck at the FCBD offerings table, and after you got to grab your goodies (nice alliteration, eh?), the rest of the store was sort of a void. Instead of a natural progression from Free Comics to Sale Comics, we had to zig and zag our way around the bottleneck. I, for one, really wanted to take a peek at the new release Graphic Novel section, but this was totally blocked by the people waiting to get their freebies, which in turn meant lost sales for the great people at A-1. Had the FCBD table been moved closer to the front door and maybe some stanchions set up to guide the traffic, more people would have had more product in their hands by the time they hit the register.

Still, a great start to a full day, and we were eager for more. Our next stop was World’s Best Comics in Sacramento, CA. This store, like the rest of our journey this day, was new territory for us. We were both excited not only to grab more freebies, but also to get a look at the different layouts of new shops. We got a little lost on our way to World’s Best (hands clenching at Mapquest, hands clapping for GPS), so we didn’t get there until close to 11:00.

At World’s Best, there was a short, maybe 10 person line at the door waiting to get in. They had no outside the shop advertising (at one point while we were waiting an elderly gentleman walked by and asked what was going on), and it didn’t seem like there were any other events tied in to the day. The store itself was pretty cramped, and the FCBD offerings were stacked on an open box of other comics. If we hadn’t seen other people grabbing them, we would probably have missed them entirely. As it were, my son grabbed Bongo’s Simpson’s offering and Kevin Smith’s Green Hornet from Dynamite. I grabbed Dark Horse Publishing’s Doctor Solar/Magnus and DC’s War of the Supermen. We could have grabbed more, but both of us kinda felt that two each were enough – some sort of unwritten code among Elkin Geeks, I guess.

Like I said, World’s Best was pretty cramped, and there appeared to be only one staff member on hand (locked behind the cash/wrap ringing up things). There was a good layout to the store, though. In order to get out, we pretty much had to look at everything there was to see in the store. While seemingly a back issue and toy heavy retail operation, there was a nice wall display of new comics. Their graphic novel section, though, seemed to consist of a couple of book shelves with all their titles spine out. Not real conducive to browsing, as it were. It’s always great to go to new shops, though, just to see what they’ve got. My son and I both agreed, though, that we probably weren’t going back to World’s Best any time soon.

Next on our list was a stop at Adventures in Comics and Games in Carmichael, CA. The GPS guided us perfectly, but the moment we pulled in to the parking lot and saw the bars on the windows and door, we knew we were in for a pretty serious old-school comic shop experience. And old school is what we got. Walking into Adventures in Comics and Games was not what I would call a welcoming experience on first sight. There was a seedy combination of stained carpet, tattered long boxes, musty odor, and plastic gaming tables that overwhelmed us as we entered. The fact that we were the only customers in there (on FCBD, mind you), only added to our trepidation.

Our mutual uneasiness with our surroundings, though, dissipated quickly the moment that one of the staff, a gentleman both my son and I assumed was the owner, greeted us warmly and engaged us quickly in the business at hand. His affability and accessibility may have been a result of us being the only patrons in the shop, but for whatever reason, his customer service was first rate. We talked a bit about the FCBD comics. I grabbed Image Comics’ Fractured Fables (mostly because of the Mike Allred cover), and David Peterson’s Mouse Guard from Archaia Press (both of which I would highly recommend to parents considering getting their youngsters into comics) which was paired with their launch of a new Fraggle Rock series (come on, admit it, you remember Jim Henson’s Fraggles – and have a secret special place in your heart for them). Our friendly gentleman answered my son’s questions about WarHammer 40K and directed us to their new release section, extolling the merits of some other titles based on our conversation up to that point. What would have probably been a quick “grab the freebies and run” experience turned into probably the most pleasant time my son and I had during the day. My son purchased a Punisher comic and Beta Ray Bill comic (both from Marvel), while I settled for a Marvel One-shot: X-Men Origins Nightcrawler. There were two other young people on staff, and they couldn’t have been nicer as well. What Adventures in Comics and Games lacked in aesthetics, they made up for in customer service. It was a bit disheartening to see the lack of turnout for FCBD at Adventures (this was at about 11:30 A.M.), and I hope this is not indicative of their normal flow of customers. If you happen to live nearby, drop on in and at least say hi.

Our final stop was a much newer store in Folsom, CA: GamersCircle Comics. GamersCircle was making the best of FCBD and turned it into a real event. Greeting us at the door were members of 501st Legion (“The World’s Definitive Imperial Costuming Organization”): a couple of Storm Troopers, an impressive Darth Vader, and what was either a Jawa or a Jedi. There were balloons and signs everywhere. Not a whole lot of people though. The store itself was bright, well laid out, and very welcoming, with new comics displayed on the walls, back issues in the middle, and toys and games sprinkled here and there. Their graphic novel section, much like World’s Best before it, consisted of 3 bookshelves, and all the books were displayed spine out (I still say this is really a terrible way to merchandise what could be a meat-and-potato product for the store – but I digress). A young man sitting at a table in the back pointed out the store’s FCBD offerings of which we were each allowed 2 choices. My son had pretty much scored all the books he was interested at this point, but I grabbed Image’s Savage Dragon and Red 5 Comics’ Atomic Robo. From the sale shelves, my son got the first issue of Geoff Johns’ The Flash (from DC), and I grabbed Marvel’s Cloak and Dagger one-shot.

For all the festive trappings of FCBD at GamersCircle and the nice open welcoming layout of the store, our customer service experience was not the greatest. No personalized conversation or sell-through to be found, no encouragement to purchase anything more or even come back. My son and I both agreed that we did not feel particularly welcomed at GamersCircle, and for that reason, we probably wouldn’t be going back.

This was our last stop for Free Comic Book Day. At around 12:30, we stopped at Urban Dog (good food this!) for lunch and reflected on our experience together. Both of us were glad we made a day of it. We chatted about the different characteristics of the stores we had seen. We talked about our dreams of opening our own shop someday (if anyone is interested in funding us, we’ve got a Business Plan all ready to go!) and how we could use the lessons we learned today. We both looked forward to heading home to read our new goodies. We both decided that it was a good day, and what really made it the best was that we got to spend it together.

My hope is that as the years pass and puberty really hits and girls and cars wash through his poor hormone addled brain, my son will look back on this year’s Free Comic Book Day, a day he spent with his dad, and remember it as a good time. With all the distractions there are already in his life, having the opportunity to spend five unadulterated hours with my son questing after comics and enjoying the experience of just being together is priceless. Free Comic Book Day is the first Saturday in May. I hope it can continue to be a family holiday at our house for years to come.

Post Script: This evening at bed time, I asked my son to tell me about his favorite part of the day. He quickly pointed to a moment we had in the car while waiting at a red light. To our left was one of those sign-spinning guys you see advertising sales or liquidations at various places of business. Right before the light turned green, this guy stopped spinning his sign and started … for lack of a better term … “humping” it. The initial shock we experienced after seeing this occur subsided into a fit of pure puerile giggling on both our parts and then swelled into full-on belly laughs for a good 2 or 3 minutes. When I asked my son why this was his favorite part of the day, he replied, “Because we laughed so hard together.” Free Comic Book Day 2010 was a good day, a very good day indeed.

Curriculum: Zombie Research Paper

From time to time, I'll be posting some of the curriculum I have developed.

My son, as well as a large swath of the world, has Zombie fever.

Zombies are everywhere, it seems. From movies, to books, to comics, pop culture is in the midst of a Zombie Apocalypse! As I am constantly trying to create high interest curriculum, I thought that a research paper on this topic would certainly be a fun and creative way to enhance writing and research skills.

So with no further ado, I give you:

Zombie Research Paper

This is an assignment in which students write a 5 paragraph essay about Zombies. The handout provided gives a pretty clear overview of format, structure, and expectations.

I hope you like it, and I would love to hear comments about it.

Review of IDW's Kill Shakespeare

This past weekend, my son and I made the two hour drive to San Francisco to be part of WonderCon. We had a great time there. My son was openly salivating during the CapCom presentation, especially while watching game play of Super Street Fighter IV (since then, he has been calling me Mr. Hibiki, which, apparently, is a Street Fighter inside joke). We both gawked at the sight of Lou Ferrigno, Lindsey Wagner, Helen Slater, and Peter Mayhew signing autographs and posing for pictures while doing their best not to appear washed up and hating the fact that their respective careers had brought them to this. We poked through miles and miles of long boxes stuffed with comic book upon comic book. We elbowed our way through sweaty cos-play revelers. We ate pizza. We felt part of a larger community. We scored some sweet swag.

One of the most interesting and seemingly most promising new releases I grabbed was Conor McCreery and Anthony Del Col’s Kill Shakepeare, published by IDW press. Kill Shakespeare is based on what may be one of the most audacious premises ever attempted in comics, but after reading issue #1 yesterday, I think these guys may just be able to pull it off. Like Alan Moore’s The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen or Bill Willingham’s fabulous Fables before it, Kill Shakespeare is based conceptually on the idea of taking previously established fictional characters and putting them in a new “world”. Kill Shakespeare appears to revolve around throwing some of Shakespeare’s most recognizable characters together and wrapping them tight in a sort of Saran Wrap of meta-fiction by having them engaged in a plot to kill William Shakespeare himself. Heady stuff, to say the least – and rather audacious, if you ask me, especially given the fact that issue #1’s main protagonist is Hamlet and its main antagonist is Richard III. For McCreery and Del Col to feel comfortable putting words in the mouths of these characters takes very large and very brass kishkes. To be honest, I had many reservations about this – especially when I heard that it was originally conceived as MMORPG (there is still talk about this happening down the road), but I must say I thoroughly enjoyed reading Kill Shakespeare issue #1 and am looking forward to following the entirety of its 12 issue run.

As Del Col said in a recent interview with Steven Bryan, “It’s got action and adventure, love and romance, drama and comedy, double-crossing and cross dressing.” all the stuff of Shakespeare’s finest work. It has characters with emotionally believable responses to their world. Also, seeing as how pretty much every story we read, especially in comic books, can be traced back to the themes and actions of any number of Shakespeare plays, Kill Shakespeare makes sense in some way. McCreery and Del Col have the ability to stay true to Shakespeare’s characterizations, as well as the creativity to put them into new situations. The writing is engaging, the characters are developing in an unhurried and natural way, and the pace and the plotting so far have left me anticipating the next issue. Also of note is the art. Andy Belanger is good. What really caught my eye, though, was the work of colorist Ian Herring. There is a muted red that runs throughout the entire first issue that, more than almost anything else, really helps establish the tone of the book.

Finally, I have to admit that Kill Shakespeare also appeals to the intellectual elitist in me (here I go again). I have to say that I take great delight in the fact that I already know quite a lot about these characters because of my background in literature. There is a certain buzz I get when I watch Rosencrantz toss Hamlet’s death warrant from Claudius over the side of the ship – the buzz kinda goes, “Yea, that’s cool. Now what’s going to happen?” But I don’t think you have to be a Shakespeare scholar to enjoy Kill Shakespeare. Your High School English teacher probably gave you all the background that you need (and you should look them up and thank them – I know they like cash gifts the best).

Issue #1 of Kill Shakespeare is due in comic shops on Wednesday, April 14. Head to your local shop and reserve a copy today.

Script Frenzy Begins Tomorrow

Script Frenzy begins tomorrow and I find myself approaching it with a damp and odiferous mixture of the sweat of excitement and the sweat of terror. The concept is to write a 100 page script (movie, play, TV, or, in my case, graphic novel) in 30 days. For my entry, I am going to be adapting a story I wrote in 1999 called “The Bats of Billfordstown” (hereafter referred to with the MC sounding acronym TBOB) – a fictionalized quirk of a ramble concerning the relationships between fathers and sons, life and death, sibling rivalry, what it means to be a man, and, of course, a bat.

While I was pretty happy with TBOB as a story, there remained an element that I felt was lacking. I am turning it into a Graphic Novel because I think it is the medium that will best convey the themes. When I write, I see the characters going through their circumvolutions in my head, and try as I might, I can’t convey everything through words. Why a Graphic Novel and not a film or play, then? I think a Graphic Novel fosters a more personal experience between the audience and the work, and I think the themes I am working with in TBOB demands that intimacy.

OK, I’ve seemingly hung myself out on a rather pretentious sounding limb here, haven’t I? It behooves me, therefore, to explain myself further lest you dismiss me as another intellectual elitist and turn from me forever.

Scott McCloud, in his fantastic book Understanding Comics: The Invisible Art, does a far better job than I ever could (see – no pretensions here!) of explaining how comics foster this intimate and personal relationship between the audience and the work. He does so by examining the concept of Closure. For McCloud, Closure is a mental process in which individuals observe parts, but perceive the whole – a process where an individual completes that which is incomplete “based on past experience”. To illustrate this concept, McCloud writes:

I’ve never been to Morocco, but I take it on faith that there is a Morocco! I’ve never seen the earth from space firsthand, yet I trust the earth is round. I’ve never been in the house across the street, yet I assume it has an interior, that it isn’t just some big movie set!”

According to McCloud (and I fully agree with him), comics depend on closure in order to make sense. In effect, without this type of individual participation, comics could not be a narrative form. Through active participation on the part of the reader, time and motion occur – without the individual act of closure, comics would just be a group of pictures.

McCloud explains further that it is in the space between the pictures or panels in comic books (referred to as “The Gutter”) that this bonding between the work and its audience occurs. As he says:

Here in the limbo of the gutter, human imagination takes two separate images and transforms them into a single idea. Nothing is seen between the two panels, but experience tells you something must be there. Comics panels fracture both time and space, offering a jagged staccato rhythm of unconnected moments. But closure allows us to connect these moments and mentally construct a continuous, unified reality … Every act committed to paper by the comics artist is aided and abetted by a silent accomplice. An equal partner in crime known as the reader.

McCloud then provides these two panels and makes the following (I think) profound observation



I may have drawn an axe being raised in this example, but I’m not the one who let it drop or decided how hard the blow, or who screamed, or why. That, Dear Reader, was YOUR SPECIAL CRIME, each of you committing it in your own style. All of you participated in the murder. All of you held the axe and chose your spot.

And then he says the line which I am using as my motto during Script Frenzy: “To kill a man between panels is to condemn him to a thousand deaths.”

Good stuff, that. If you have any interest in this sort of thing, I cannot recommend Scott McCloud’s book, Understanding Comics: The Invisible Art, enough.

Anyway, it is this idea that makes me feel that TBOB is best suited for Graphic Novel-hood. Closure is an individual act. When an individual participates to make meaning, that meaning becomes important to that individual. The themes of TBOB, I think, require that kind of work on the part of the audience.

Oh poop, I sounded pretentious again.

Anyway – Script Frenzy – starting tomorrow.

Inhale/Exhale – repeat.

Now write.

Sweet Science -- A Professional Documentary About Amateur Boxing

Even in the absence of a home-grown Heavyweight Champion, the sport of boxing seems to be having a resurgence in America. While this could be contributed to factors such as the fantastic global branding of the Manny Pacquiao product, or the marketing gears behind the The Super Six World Boxing Classic for Super Middleweights, the sport itself deserves its reemergence into the spotlight. For in the jabs and power punches of champions, boxing is all about the triumph of the individual in the face of tremendous opposition. And America, more than ever in recent times, needs to celebrate this. To this end comes Chris Howell's documentary Sweet Science.

Sweet Science sets its two hour focus on the dreams of men battered by their circumstances – the dreams of escaping the bonds and binds of their social situation – the dreams of overstepping the confines of their present existence foisted upon them by factors seemingly beyond their control: their race, their poverty, their lack of education – the dreams of one family in particular, the Hatleys and their dreams of Olympic boxing gold.

Local Dallas, Texas photographer Chris Howell has spent the last eight years filming and editing the story of Greg Hatley, his sons, and the fortunes of the Oak Cliff Boxing Club as his first feature length documentary. Through Howell’s lens, Greg Hatley is simultaneously a savior-like presence for the young men of South Dallas, a driven and dedicated boxing coach, a shrewd business man, and a father living out his own dreams of glory vicariously through the fists of his sons. As the film’s focus, Greg Hatley’s story delivers a visceral, cathartic reward to the audience, and his trials and single-mindedness are at times either inspirational or heartbreaking.

The film also does an excellent job of bringing to light the world of amateur boxing. It touches briefly on some of its controversies, specifically in the computer scoring system, but mainly focuses on the opportunity that the sport provides for young men who would otherwise have a very bleak future. While the story of the film follows Greg Hatley’s hopes for his youngest son Charles, a gifted young boxer, it also looks at the lives of his other son “Rabbit”, and two otherwise lost young men, Dominic Littleton and Greg Corbin. It is in these sub-plots that so much of the emotional impact of the film resides. The stories of Littleton and Corbin, especially, are the things of great tragedy, and it is these stories particularly that frame the real journey of the movie.

For at its heart, Sweet Science is a documentary about trying to overcome adversity. It is not a film for people looking for simple answers or easy resolution. It is more “Raging Bull” than “Rocky”, but it is a film that leaves a lasting impression, a complex tale for complex times.

Howell does not intrude upon the narrative of the film, but lets his subjects play out their stories starkly in a true documentary style. Questions pop up throughout the film, such as the role, expectations, and obligations of billionaire Todd Wagner’s Foundation, but Howell does not let the focus of the film be derailed, and he lets the viewer draw his or her own conclusions, a refreshing touch in an era of heavy-handed politically savvy documentaries. Howell also does a great job of allowing juxtapositions to shine brightly on their own, particularly through the interaction between Charlie Hatley and Floyd “Money” Mayweather. There is no preaching in Sweet Science, there is only story. Howell seems to trust his audience, and, especially, his film.

Sweet Science is a story about the quest to overcome adversity. Stark and sharp, redemptive and tragic, it is a worthwhile journey. It is a film for both boxing fans and detractors alike because ultimately, it is a film about us. It also marks the beginning of what should be a very interesting film career for Chris Howell.

Sweet Science has its World Premiere at the Dallas International Film Festival - April 12th, 7pm and April 15th, 4:30pm at the Angelika Film Center. You can purchase tickets here.

Poets You Should Know: Russell Edson

Russell Edson is a poet who speaks to you through your dreams. My friend, Dr. Fishbag, handed me a copy of The Reason Why The Closet Man is Never Sad and told me that this poet was actually me, but with better hand writing. Taken aback, I asked Fishbag "If this poet has better hand writing, will he be more profound?" Fishbag looked me dead in the eye and said, "Of course." And that made all the difference.


The Wounded Breakfast

A huge shoe mounts up from the horizon, squealing and grinding forward on small wheels, even as a man sitting to breakfast on his veranda is suddenly engulfed in a great shadow, almost the size of the night . . . He looks up and sees a huge shoe ponderously mounting out of the earth. Up in the unlaced ankle-part an old woman stands at a helm behind the great tongue curled forward; the thick laces dragging like ships' rope on the ground as the huge thing squeals and grinds forward; children everywhere, they look from the shoelace holes, they crowd about the old woman, even as she pilots this huge shoe over the earth . . . Soon the huge shoe is descending the opposite horizon, a monstrous snail squealing and grinding into the earth . . . The man turns to his breakfast again, but sees it's been wounded, the yolk of one of his eggs is bleeding . . .

And it only gets better the longer it sits in your lap. Edson turns our nightmares into beautiful pieces of succulent melon. He understands that everything in our lives, from the trip to the mall to a bowl of cereal, is fraught with the absurd. As we desperately try to make meaning of our lives, Edson points out clearly that it is a fool's game and ultimately we will be swolled by randomness.

The Family Monkey

We bought an electric monkey, experimenting rather recklessly with funds carefully gathered since grandfather's time for the purchase of a steam monkey. We had either, by this time, the choice of an electric or gas monkey. The steam monkey is no longer being made, said the monkey merchant. But the family always planned on a steam monkey. Well, said the monkey merchant, just as the wind-up monkey gave way to the steam monkey, the steam monkey has given way to the gas and electric monkeys. Is that like the grandfather clock being replaced by the grandchild clock? Sort of, said the monkey merchant. So we bought the electric monkey, and plugged its umbilical cord into the wall. The smoke coming out of its fur told us something was wrong. We had electrocuted the family monkey.

This sort of stuff doesn't just come from nowhere. This is a complex realization of how we interact with each other, but more importantly, how we interact with ourselves. Nothing points a finger in your own face more than an electric monkey, after all.

Do yourself a favor and go out and by The Tunnel, which is a collection of Edson's poetry.




Now kiss me on the head and tell me good-night.

Why Walt Whitman Wins!

"Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes."

You know, in High School, when I first was assigned to read selections from Walt's poetic opus, Leaves of Grass, I found myself confused and slightly turned off. Who was this Old Man from an Old Time using Old Words and what could it possibly have to do with my life as an awkward teen in Dallas, Texas full of romantic notions of Bukowski and Brautigan, Kerouac and Ginsberg? My ear attunded to the sound of fear, the sound of desperation -- beat, punk, down.

"Mr. Williams, sir, what do you hope will happen when I read this man's words," I asked.

"Something profound...."

It still resonates in my ear. Mr. Williams, my sophomore English Teacher, was like a god to me. This man took me and turned me inside out, causing my eyes to be filled with worlds I had never dreamed of in my quest for depravity. If Mr. Williams told me it was going to be profound, then I had to believe him.

And your very flesh shall be a great poem.

What is it about Walt that makes me float above all my self-doubt, all my self-destruction, all my self-loathing? Walt uses the large words, the transcendent words. He makes you understand that the insignificant, the maimed, the downtrodden, the eagles, the ants, the leaves of grass are all part of the greatness that is creation. As we connect, we expand and fill the void. You can hear it in every word he drops on to the page.

I believe a leaf of grass is no less than the journey-work of the stars.

When I turned 40 I had every intention of tattooing Walt's words on my body. Money kept me from making it permanent, so I drew the following on my forearm with a black Bic pen (it is #52):

The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my gab and my loitering.

I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable,

I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.

The last scud of day holds back for me,

It flings my likeness after the rest and true as any on the shadow'd wilds,

It coaxes me to the vapor and the dusk.

I depart as air, I shake my white locks at the runaway sun,

I effuse my flesh in eddies, and drift it in lacy jags.

I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love,

if you want me again look for me under your boot-soles.

You will hardly know who I am or what I mean,

But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,

And filter and fibre your blood.

Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,

Missing me one place search another,

I stop somewhere waiting for you.

See what I mean... Everytime I speak it or read it or type as just now, I fall. And as I fall I am caught on waves of wind lifting me as I collapse upon my self.

I have a picture of Walt in my office. When the kids come in to talk to me, or they have been sent to talk to me, Walt looks them all in the eye before they begin. I wonder if they connect with him as I do?

I try to talk softly when I talk to myself outloud. It puts everyone else in a more comfortable position.

Review of Bonedome's Thinktankubator

Don’t Tell Allan Hayslip That You Love Him

“You should be glad that words were the worst things
I ever put in your mouth”
-Better by Bonedome on Thinktankubator

Steeped in the dark reality of dysfunctional and co-dependent relationships – celebrating and reveling in the more painful aspects of love, the giving of oneself to another and the violence therein – Allan Hayslip, long time Dallas, Texas sideman in bands such as Vibrolux, Sixty-Six, Prince Jellyfish, and currently performing in Rock Star Karaoke, pushes himself to the fore with his band Bonedome and their newly released album, Thinktankubator, which Hayslip describes as a “collection of relationship songs clothed in quirky, sad, introspective, and self-deprecating timbers.”

The album opens with the song Sandman, a muddied rocker thick with overdubbed harmonies, Julian Cope overtures, and a sneer, in which Hayslip openly declares his inability to keep any sort of resolve in his decisions in the face of another’s desire. This abdication of power, according to many a paisley sweater wearing prescription writing psychiatrist today, leads to feelings of inferiority and, more to the point in this case, anger, resentment, and mistrust of others. It is in this pot that most of Thinktankubator stews.

Songs like Eraser, a slower-tempoed harmonic showpiece in which Hayslip really lets slip his chorister training; Easy, a heavy, crescendo pointing arm waver; and Better, a real multi-layered stand out rocker, all play with the idea of betrayal and the hurt it begets. There is an undertone of violence in these songs, most obviously in Easy, whose chorus of “It’s easy to kill a man / It’s easy from where I stand” is almost a distraction from the strangulation fantasy in which Hayslip revels in the aftermath of his lover’s seeming affair. Hayslip himself is an imposing figure, large by any standards, which only adds to the ominous nature of these songs.

Yet Hayslip also seems to indicate that he is just as capable of betrayal as anyone else. Girl One, a song I was singing to myself while folding laundry hours after listening to it; The Other One, an obvious nod to the Pixies (actually Hayslip and Black Francis look like they could have been separated at birth) that veers off on its own to become comfortable in its authentic groove; and Red Flags R Trouble, another of the album’s songs that stuck with me long after I last listened to it, all seem to inform the listener that Hayslip can give just as good as he can get in this cage match of heartbreak and betrayal.

The nakedness of these songs is almost brutal at times. This may be a result of the fact that Hayslip has lived through some real heartache in his life and has, through true introspection, been able to channel this destruction into an act of creation – or it may be a by-product of the fact that most of the basic tracking for the album was done in an non air conditioned control room in the heat of the Dallas summer, allowing Hayslip to engineer naked, a fact he seems to take great glee in revealing.

The song I Can Lose You takes the idea of abandonment further and moves it into an interesting discussion about the nature of friendship and the sacrifices of that relationship, with Hayslip playing the convenient martyr in this complex song heavily indebted to David Bowie’s Space Oddity and Ashes to Ashes.

While the album’s core rests in these themes of betrayal, abandonment, and violence, there are a couple of notable exceptions. The first is Steven, which has one of the most honest choruses (chori??) since Lou Reed openly declared that he wanted to be black. In Steven, Hayslip shouts “I write songs to give good interviews / I do drugs to give good interviews,” underlying his understanding that nothing sells today like a good back-story and an even heavier horse or monkey on your back.

The other exception is my favorite song on the album, Fade Away, a stumpy, thuddy collision between Buddy Holly and AC/DC. Here, Hayslip turns on its head the classic poet pick-up line: “Baby, if you let me lick on you awhile, I’ll write a poem about it and make you immortal.” Fade Away seems to celebrate the transience of existence and notoriety -- that he and his lover are “just two drops in the sea” who will eventually just fade from history. “And it’s okay,” according to Hayslip. While seemingly celebratory of this sort of carpe diem, the song’s ending refrain of “I’m gonna tell you” returns the listener to the ominous tone of the rest of the album, adding another layer of complexity to the message of the song.

While the album does misfire a couple of times, most notably on Slow Jesus Xing and the cringing choral drudgery of Custody Lullaby, the great majority of it is filled with tight, well-orchestrated songs that highlight Hayslip’s song writing ability and his Peter Murphy ispired vocals. The album bodes well for Hayslip’s continued emergence as a front man and it is certainly worth a listen, especially if you’re driving away from your lover’s home for the last time ever, gripping the steering wheel white-knuckled tight, all gacked up on anger and betrayal, and looking for something to say.

Remember the Noise

I have decided that the only way I can ground myself in the midst of writing Tech Plans, formulating timelines for fund drives, having panic attacks over the school's budget woes, and my own mishegaas (don't even go there) is to fill my head with feedback -- lots and lots of guitar feedback. Now nobody will ever do it like Lou Reed on "Metal Machine Music", but let's take a look at a couple of brothers from East Kilbride, Scotland, Jim and William Reid, who in 1984 threw poop all over the music industry with a tremondous force fed by feedback. They did this by forming the band: The Jesus and Mary Chain.

(God, if only I still had enough hair to do that)

These guys, when they first started, would play like 10 minute sets consisting entirely of this massive ear-bleeding screaming and pooping wall of feedback. These shows, of course, often ended up with the audience rioting -- after all, what else is there to do after being fully assualted for 10 minutes.

The band's first record release was titled Psychocandy . Wow, who knew you could bend screeching feedback distortion smash your face eyebleeding noise into a beautiful melodic love song? The Jesus and Mary Chain knew they could when they released the single, "Just Like Honey". I'll never forget the moment I first heard this one in my suburban Dallas middle-class Jewish bedroom. If I had thought about it, I probably would have fallen to the floor a quivering mess. But I wasn't thinking about that. I was thinking about the noise. And of course, I had to think about the hair:

The brothers Reid calmed it down some after the debut album and released some more toned down ideas and sounds. Then came "Reverence" which spewed it again all over the faces of anyone who would listen -- spit and bile and, of course, distortion.


Almost makes you want to die, too -- doesn't it? Anyway, toward the end of the band's inital run (they "broke up" in 1999) things got discordant (as you could imagine), but they were able to produce, after "Just like Honey", my favorite Jesus and Mary Chain song: "Hate Rock and Roll". In this song, the Reid brothers demonstrate that they have fully mastered the noise, the feedback, the ear-bleeding, so that (especially at the end of the song) you can't help but pound on the steering wheel if your driving, smack the desk if you are working, or break a dish if you are cleaning. Listen to it and judge for yourself:


You know what. The hell with it. I hate rock and roll. From here on out, all I want to listen to is the sound of the trains in the night, rolling, rolling, rolling away from me.

Turn off the TV. Listen to the noise.